Maintaining the Ramadan Momentum

[These are the rough notes of Cii talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed on thursday, 13th September, 2012]

Always be thinking and remembering Allah swt. If we don’t follow this commandment then we will find ourselves losing the momentum of Ramadan.

Few tips from our shaykh and mashaikh of sisila: (You can call these value advices to retain feelings)

1. Do Tawwakul on Allah swt

Anybody who returns to aqal after developing rooh this means they are always thinking and pondering. before they were managing through dua and tawakkul. But now they returned to their mind. In ramadan we are making dua for everything. But after ramadan we revert to our planning and strategizing. Anyone who completely rely on aqal will go astray. For example, Abu jahl was all about aqal. Atheists and philosophers are great thinkers but their aqal cannot bring them to deen. Month of Ramadan has so much barakah that a person is not even able to use aqal. For example if a person has problems at job they just make dua. In routine make dua, you can’t always be making strategy.

Allah swt ultimately and truly it’s only You who will help us.

2. Do wuquf e qalbi

3. Make Dua.

Third thing is dua. Don’t completely rely on aqal. More dua you make the less you rely on aqal. And the less you make dua, the more you depend on your aqal. You have to keep your spiritual hearts alive through dua and ibaadah.

4. Learn from experience.

Syedna Rasool Allah sws explained that Ummah spiritually learns from spiritual experience.

Hadith: If dung from one hole the Muslim will not get dung from same hole again.

We have to learn and not return to our ghaflah. In all other matters we learn from experience. For example if the hot pizza burns your tongue you will refrain from eating hot pizza next time. Same way we learn from intellectual and emotional experiences. We also have to learn from our own spiritual experience.

Think about what was it in Ramadan that really moved you? Tasbeeh or tahajjud? For everyone it would be different. Even before a month we might have forgotten what moved us. Sometimes during recitation a particular ayah or several ayah have a deep impact on us but we don’t take notice of it. Keep note of what moves you.

We have to make ourselves being able to move

5. Learn from spiritual experiences of others.

We are so worldly we are always trying to find professionals who are experienced. We are even finding experienced professors etc. This is called suhbah i.e. attend regular majilis and regular gatherings to change our routine feelings.

One way people say to get experience is by making mistakes. That’s what the hadith was. We do amal on this when world is concerned. The experience of spirituality is also included in this.

6. Change Your Routine

Think about the things that invite you to a particular sin. What were the steps that led me to the sin? We are not trying to edit our routine. We are not trying to improve our routine. We are happy with keeping our routine. But this way we will lose our feelings. So the example we often give is misdirecting the gaze and surfing the net. What were the precursors? Suppose you:

  • went to a new site
  • were alone
  • it was late at night

We have to learn from our mistakes. When we start eliminating the mistakes, our routine will improve. Changing routine means we want the routine of mutakeen, qaniteen, momineen. Tasawwuf is all about learning from those who are experienced.

  1. Experience teaches us that:
  • That person who fears Allah swt always, his ikhtatam will always be khayr.
  • That person who fears Allah swt sometimes, they will sometimes have ikhtatam on khyr.
  • That person who never fears Allah swt, they can never come to a good end.

Experience teaches us that the more we fear the more the chances of good end. And vice versa.

  1. Experience teaches us anyone who disobeys Allah swt will face worries in their lives. The more we disobey then more worries we will have. If we never disobey then we will have no worries involving depression etc. they will still have tests. Auliya Allah are none other than people of taqwah.

You can also start backwards like do you have worries? Yes? Emend the routine to make the routine better.

Agar ham chahte hein k kisi ka kaul aur amal mein farak khatam hou jaye to matlab uss ka nafs e ammara khatam hou gya. Like we say we love Allah swt but actions are not according to that. We say we love Syedna Rasool Allah sws but actions are not according to that. If a person does what they preach and do what they say such a person has reached nafs e ammara and get nafs e mutmaina.

Abu darda ra took oath and said a person who is afraid of a bad ending then due to that fear Allah swt will give them death on kalima. It means that either literally or that their whole life will be made according to that kalima. And vice versa.

It’s only when we change our routine that we will get taqwah ikhlas etc. Sometimes we have some aspects very much stuck in our routines. Real work to do is to make progress in routine. Feel those makamat e ashra. It will make you change your routine.

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Nafs Ki Islah: On Disciplining the Soul

[These are the rough notes of a talk delivered by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed  in Karachi on Friday, September 14, 2012]


1. Mukhalafatun Nafs — Opposing the desires

Eat less: all extra food you eat goes to your nafs.

2. Mujahidatun Nafs — Striving and exerting yourself to do good

i. Do more acts of worship. Put the burden of worship on nafs. Besides the daily prayers, pray nafl, tahajjud, salat al hajat, salat al ishraq etc. Keep nafl fasts.

ii. Get involved in Halal recreation. If you can’t keep busy in worship all the time, then keep yourself occupied in some halal recreation. Everyone sins in their free time. If you know you sin when you are alone, on vacations, on weekends, at night, then be honest with yourself and take away that free time from yourself. Keep yourself busy.

iii. Do more Khidmat. If you can’t keep busy in worship then be of service to others. Serve Allah (swt) and deen, serve the people. If someone says to me that I cannot do acts of worship, nor can I serve others, then my reply to them is that you are setting yourself up to serve your nafs then.

3. Making du’a

Without the special Mercy of Allah (swt) no one is able to purify their nafs. The only way we will ever ever be able to do the tazkiyah is with the Mercy of Allah (swt). That’s the secret of khidmet. Allah’s (swt) special Mercy comes on those who serve others. But even while doing khidmet you should still make du’a.

Three more ways to discipline the souls [as mentioned by Hadrat Ashraf Ali thanvi (rh)]:

4. Suhbat-e-Shaykh, Ittaba-e-shaykh — Getting the company of a spiritual mentor

Some people think there is no need for a shaykh. For such people I have three proofs from Qur’an aur Sunnah.

i. First answer from Qur’an:

يَـٰٓأَيُّہَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ ٱتَّقُواْ ٱللَّهَ وَكُونُواْ مَعَ ٱلصَّـٰدِقِينَ
O you who believe, fear Allah, and be in the company of the truthful. [9:119]

ii. Second answer from Hadith:

A man is upon the religion of his best friend, so let one of you look at whom he befriends. [Sunan Abu Dawud]

That is, a person will be on the religion of their best friend, their closest friend. So if you desire Nafs al-Mutmainah, then be in the company of those who have this Nafs al-mutmainah.

iii. Third answer from logic:

If a person says I don’t need a guide because I have a map. But had the person taken the guide won’t he have reached easily? Guide in Arabic is a Murshid. Only the guided can guide. We have the map. We have Qur’an and hadith. That’s not the problem. We need to be pushed and reminded according to the Qur’an and sunnah.

iv. Fourth answer from Hadith:

The Religion is naseeha (sincerity and sincere advice). [Sahih Muslim]

Some people will be counseling, and some would get counseled. That person who has disciplined their own nafs can guide you to do it. This is an ilm transferred from generation to generation. You also have to accept tarbiyat (disciplining) by the counselor. Ragra (strenuous disciplining), daant (reprimanding) is a part of counsel too.

5. Learning from enemies and opponents

Allah (swt) has sent these people in your life so make sure you learn from them as well. Your friends and loved ones maybe blinded to your faults, but an ill-wisher will not shy away from pointing out any shortcomings they notice in you.

6. Learning from the mistakes of others

Learn from those who did not purify their nafs and as a result were humiliated by Allah (swt) in this world. Rather than feeling superior, one must think that is a strayed person whom Allah (swt) has exposed, and I am a strayed person whom Allah (swt) has not exposed yet. Allah (swt) may not always hide your sins so be vary. Even if we leave unscathed from this world, Allah (swt) will suspend His sattari on that day (on The Day of Judgment). A potential zillat (humiliation) is always there on the Day of Judgment for all of us.

Hadith:

That person is also a mujahid who strives against his soul/self in obedience to God, the Mighty and Majestic. [At-Tirmidhi, Ibn Majah, Ibn Hibban, Tabarani, Hakim]

That is, that person is also a mujahid who gives their entire life (salik) to do jihad against their nafs. It’s not something to be done occasionally. We did it for the whole month of Ramadan. But look at your own situation now — where do you stand? This is not something to be done occasionally, on Hajj, or Umrah, itikaf. This is the struggle, the mujahida of a lifetime. You should dedicate your lives for this struggle.

What is the beginning point of this struggle? Love for Allah (swt).

What is the limit, the goal, the destination? Allah (swt) says in Quran:

إِنۡ أَوۡلِيَآؤُهُ ۥۤ إِلَّا ٱلۡمُتَّقُونَ
Its (competent) custodians are none but the God-fearing [8:34]

First the mujahida is to attain taqwah. Then the mujahida is to sustain that taqwah. Make the intention to strive to discipline the nafs. Whether or not one reaches that goal is another matter, our job is to spend our lives struggling to get this taqwah.

On How To Get Qalb-e-Saleem

[These are the rough notes of a talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed  in  Karachi on Saturday, September 15, 2012]


Some Practical Tips For Getting Qalb-e-Saleem

1. Get rid of unlawful love

We should remove any and every unlawful love from our hearts. It is said about Majnu’ that he made du’a to Allah (swt) that I make tawbah from every sin except for the love for Laila. If we look into our own lives everyone has a different form of laila in their hearts. For some it is fame, prestige, popularity, repute. For others it is wealth. For some it is love for ghayr-mehram. Analyze your own heart and start extracting all the unlawful loves you have gathered there. When you get rid of unlawful love, your heart will get filled with love for Allah (swt).

2. Be aware of Allah (swt)

Qalb-e-saleem is dhakir – it is always remembering Allah (swt).

Quran: Verily only in the remembrance of Allah do the hearts find rest. [13:28]

Hadith: Verily, everything has a polish and the polish of the heart is the remembrance of Allah the Exalted. [Shu’ab al-Imān]

3. Repent from every sin

If you fall into sin then make tawbah from it immediately. For example, if you miss your fajr, instead of delaying, excusing yourself, or avoiding the guilt, make tawbah and pray its qadha immediately. Make it a part of your routine to do istighfar on a daily basis. Also repent from your laziness every time there is a slack or lapse in obligations of deen.

4. Value your free time

Be mindful of where you spend your time. It is a limited commodity, like a traveler has limited resources so they use it calculatedly. We are also travelers in this world with a limited amount of time. Anytime death can come and snatch it away from us. Even if we get to live for a hundred years, sooner or later that time too will come to pass.

5. Be mindful in your Salah

When a person with a pure heart makes takbir in their salah, they forget the world and the center of their focus becomes Allah (swt) alone. You will not be able to attain this level of awareness overnight. It requires a lot of hard work, dedication and disciplining. All of us gathered here today, we do pray Alhamdulillah, we are not be-namazi per se. When you are praying anyway then why not do it with more concentration? Salah is one of the most important pillars of Islam and its importance has been emphasized many times.

Quran: Establish Salah for My remembrance. [20:14]

If we are not remembering Allah (swt) then we are not doing it right. We are the kind of people who are purpose-driven, so we should also try to fulfill the purpose of Salah.

Start with your sujud. Even if you cannot fix every sujud, at least make it your goal to pray one tasbeeh in every sujud with full awareness.

More details on how to work on the spiritual aspect of salah are mentioned here:

Surah Fatiha and the Spiritual Feelings of Salah
Focusing in our Prayer


On Leaving Futile Activities (Turk-e-fuzool)

[These are the rough notes of a talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed  in Karachi on September 16, 2012]


Being involved in too many pointless and wasteful activities is also something that harms a person’s spirituality. Just like if you are a student and you are involved in all sorts of pointless activities, then your intellectual progress will go down.

There are 4 common idle things that we do which are poison for the heart.

1. Fuzool kalam — Idle and pointless conversations

We talk too much. In the olden days women folk were known for talking too much, but now men have also become very talkative. And when it comes to talking to Allah (swt), they can’t do it. They find it hard to make du’a. This is worrisome. Cannot talk to Allah (swt) and can talk to people so much. Syedna Rasool Allah (sws) said tongue will lead so many people to hell.

A person utters a word thoughtlessly (i.e., without thinking about it being good or not) and, as a result of this, he will fall down into the fire of Hell deeper than the distance between the east and the west.” [Al-Bukhari and Muslim]

That firstly means haram kalam (e.g. lying etc.) But it also means useless and idle talks. Every word we speak will either be nur on our heart or it will bring zulm on our heart. Even the West acknowledges that you should be purposeful in your speech. And if you don’t have anything good to say then you should stay quiet altogether.

He who believes in Allah and the Last Day must either speak good or remain silent. [Muslim]

Power of tongue is such that even a few rude words can bring us to sin. Like if you say something to your parents that’s rude, this is a sin. In English they say that wounds inflicted by sword are cured but the wounds inflicted by words cannot be cured. Because you cannot put a band-aid on a person’s heart.

Another Hadith is that gheebah (backbiting) is greater than zina. Gheebah is the sin of the tongue.

Types of idle talk

i. Tabsira. This means views and analysis. They say this is my opinion, now lets see what is the opinion of the news anchor. Then they discuss that opinion for hours on end and still don’t reach any solution. In the previous three years millions of hours of analysis has been done, or even billion. If we had taken the same amount of time to turn to Allah (swt) in worship just imagine how much more beneficial that would have been. Youngsters today also have such a weak faith, they leave all their obligations and duties for rallies and protests.

Once a tree said to a wise man that look how wonderful I am! If someone throws stones at me, in turn I give them my fruits. The elderly said that if you are so wonderful, howcome Allah (swt) has made you fuel for the hell fire? The tree replied that’s because of one of my shortcomings, that I turn towards wherever the wind blows, go with the flow!

ii. Sawal. Asking bad questions with bad intentions or to ask a question that is of no benefit or relevance to you. That’s all useless. So many people have asked me questions in my short life that was of no benefit to them. And I even gave them the answers in the hope that they will ask me better questions. But they don’t do that. It’s like you have cancer and you ask the doctor about a pimple. And the doctor answers hoping he will ask about his cancer later.

You should not be speaking at all. No recreational conversation. That’s what our elders have said. Speak of khyr and deen. Any worldly talk will lead to fuzool. Although talking about conditions and problems faced by Muslims is another thing.

Do not indulge in excessive talk except when remembering Allah. Excessive talking without the Remembrance of Allah hardens the heart. [at-Tirmidhi]

2. Fuzool nazr — Idle and pointless gazing

An idle gaze will lead to haram and sinful gaze. Like maybe there’s a person who went to the store with the intention to buy something. If he walks around in such a way that not only does he looks at the item he has to buy, but all the other things as well. So he doesn’t lower his gaze and his eyes keep wandering around. Looking at billboards is useless. It’s not required for driving. If you expand the range of idle gaze, sooner or later you will have a haram nazr. Our basarat (vision) is over-charged, and our baseerat (wisdom) is almost non-existent.

All the things you watch in media; the movies and also on youtube is all wasteful. I won’t call it haram but it is definitely pointless. Even good Muslims who don’t have TVs at homes watch strange videos on youtube. I am talking about halal things, but even then, it’s all useless. This world is all about idle and pointless things. And it’s making you too visually aware. You over-use your gaze. Because you are addicted to idle gazing, you are deprived of the tranquility of worship. It’s a big cost to pay. So we should stop looking around. You should literally and physically lower your gaze.

Next time try it when you go to the shop. It’s not going to hurt you in anyway. Tell yourself I don’t want to see even any item that I don’t have to buy. I want to prove that I can control myself from all this marketing.

Idle gaze will guaranteed lead you to sinful gaze. And a person who sins with their eyes will lose the pleasure of dua, of salah, and will even lose the pleasure of serving people. They will feel burdened even when serving their own parents, because serving them is also a type of worship as Allah (swt) has prescribed it. They will become irritable. What do you think that you will take pleasure from so many different types of sinful gazes and only pleasure of one type of worship will be taken away from you? Rather all different types of pleasure of worship will be taken away from you! The best way to save yourself from sinful gaze is to stop yourself from idle gaze.

3. Fuzool sun’na — Idle and pointless listening

Not just haram things, like backbiting and music is downright haram. But this would include everything laghw like you guys love to get the scoop – you want to know what’s going on. But you don’t have time to listen to the recitation of Qur’an. Those who don’t have enough time to spare for music now use earphones. This is their dedication! You can also use those earphones to listen to Qura’n. Listening to futile things also leads to haram. This is the general flow of how shaytaan gets us into haram:

Listening to the other –> Seeing the other –> Talking to the other –> Touching the other

This is the sequence. So if you stop yourself from idle hearing, then you can stop from haram hearing and a list of other things that follow.

4. Fuzool khyalaat — Idle thoughts

The more useless thoughts you get, the greater the chances of you getting the sinful thoughts. You have to keep a control. Do mukhalafat of nafs i.e. go against your desires. We go all the way from fuzool thinking to day dreaming and always conceptualizing sin. Why? It’s because you didn’t hook yourself on dhikr. A heart void of dhikr feels the emptiness. First this void will get filled with idle thoughts and then with sinful thoughts. Therefore do not leave the void. Always be thinking thoughts of Allah (swt). And when you are not thinking about Allah (swt), then shaytan and nafs will book a room in your heart.

Imagine a person who hasn’t thought of anything idle for a whole 24 hours, neither in speech, nor in listening, nor in speaking. Just imagine how easy it would be for such a person to remember Allah (swt)! The practice of this dhikr makes it easier for a person to tread on the path of Shari’ah. You say that deen is so hard to follow, isn’t their an easier way? Leave the idle, pointless things and it will itself become easy for you. What’s easier than this? But you will have to do turk-e-fuzool.

5. Fuzool khana — Overeating

People say I only want to do fardh. Okay, how about you take this fardh-only attitude towards food? There is a certain amount of food you need to keep the body going. The rest of the energy and calories go to your nafs. There are many harm of indulging in overeating.

  • Time is wasted
  • Money is wasted
  • Nafs becomes stronger
  • Will power gets weaker

You have just spent Ramadan. Allah (swt) gave you Ramadan that when you eat less, drink less, indulge less in these things then you can attain taqwah.

يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ كُتِبَ عَلَيۡڪُمُ ٱلصِّيَامُ كَمَا كُتِبَ عَلَى ٱلَّذِينَ مِن قَبۡلِڪُمۡ لَعَلَّكُمۡ تَتَّقُونَ
O you who believe, the fasts have been enjoined upon you as they were enjoined upon those before you, so that you may be God-fearing [2:183]

6. Fuzoon sona — Over sleeping

You people have a lot of free time and then you oversleep. All the time in which you oversleep, that is the time you were supposed to do dhikr. Dhikr is also a source of relaxation and sukoon. It would have been the same thing. A person can sleep 6-7 hours max, anything more than that is extra. You can go below 6 hours if you are doing intense work of deen otherwise don’t go below that. If you have 8 hours of sleep then bring it down to 7 hours and do 1 hour of dhikr.

7. Fuzool kamana — Extraneous earnings

This might be most worrisome for you. Extraneous earning. You can do it up till you get your comfort and up till you get the comfort of your family, for the short-term future. Beyond that it becomes extra. It’s hard to admit. The rest of the capitalistic society is pushing you to earn more. You will make up excuses that whatever extra I get, I will give it to charity. But you won’t do it. People become miserly even in taking out zakat. Earning is good up till a limit, after that it is all useless.

Those who indulge is extraneous earning, sooner or later turn to unlawful means of earning. It’s gauranteed. Tark-e-fuzool se ijtinab-e-haram hota hai (leaving idle will prevent you from sin).

How to stop extraneous earnings?

One way to practically do this is to leave the doubtful. Another meaning of fuzool is extra. Technically speaking it just means extra.

Listen to this sentence carefully: because we are so involved in the extras of this world, we don’t have time for the extra of deen. You can say Jannat-ul-firdous is extra. So if you’re involved in extras of dunya then be ready to sacrifice Jannat-ul-firdous. Be ready to sacrifice the company of Sahaba karam (ra) and of Prophets (as).

8. Fuzool milna milana — Pointless socializing

Useless gatherings. Pointless social-life. Pointless interactions with people. Same thing: the more you engage in pointless socializing, the more in danger you are of falling into sin. If you socialize for religious purposes then it is beneficial. Anything else is at best doubtful and at worst haram.

1. Some gatherings are like medicines

Without them, you cannot be healthy, you cannot survive. For example halal job and halal business can fall into this. It is necessary interaction. In education that is your vital interaction, within the bounds of shari’ah.

2. Some gatherings are like an illness

The gatherings of dunya where and ghaflah (heedlessness) takes place. We should try to refrain from them, try to stay away from sin. To stay away from sin one should try to stay away from ghaflah. Cyber majlis is also harmful. Your own company with the laptop can harm you.

3. Some gatherings are like poison

i. Haram gatherings

Even if you claim you will not do anything haram there, it’s still haram. Like you say that I will go to that place but I will lower my gaze. Even if you do that, why do you want to be at a place which Allah (swt) is looking at with anger and wrath?

ii- Company of na-jins

To keep company of those people who are not trying to seek the pleasure of Allah (swt) the way you want to. Like there’s a young man who keeps company of corrupt young men for the sake of imaan. This can only be possible if you have super-strong imaan, only then will you be able  to influence others. But you have to be honest with yourself about who is influencing whom.

4. Some gatherings are like food. Especially those gathering that are like food for the spirit and heart like majlis or gatherings of mashaikh. Lazman aisi majalis ko pakrein.

Value 5 things before 5

[These are the rough notes of a talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed  in IBA, Karachi on Wednesday, 19th sept, 2012]

This is a Hadith of Prophet sws that value 5 things before 5 things.

1. Value your youth before old-age.

There are 7 categories of believers who will be shaded by the shade of Arsh of Allah swt on The Day of Judgment when there will be no other shade. Amongst them one category is the youth who gave their life for Allah swt. It means that they gave their free time, their passion to Allah swt. It means that when you become farigh then turn to Allah swt. Ye tou hamein sharam aani chahiye k Allah swt farmaein k farigh time Allah swt ko dein. Jaise ammi kahein k beta jab farigh hou jao tou aana. Aap kahein gey ammi aap ne aise kaha hi kun? Mein abhi aa jaoun ga mein aap ka beta houn.

So turn to Allah swt when you become free, when you become a free resolve. This is because nafs and shaytaan attack when you are free. Just think about how much do you sin during exam-time and how much do you sin when you are free? And turn towards your Rabb when you are free. Our youth and life structure is also such that we have a lot of free time in this age. When we grow into old age we will have a family, a husband or wife and children maybe one, two or three, may Allah swt put barakah in children but the thing is that you will have less time then.

2. Value your health before you get sick.

This shows the spirit of Islam. Who is a momin? A momin is a person who is so efficient in his time that even if he gets sick for a day it is devastating for his efficiency. For example, there’s a person very poor materialistically. He drives a rickshaw and he gets sick. He goes to a doctor and the doctor tells him to take rest. He would say doctor I can’t afford to get sick. He would say I cannot afford this. It means that time is crucial for this person. Similarly, the momin is so spiritually poor that he cannot afford to get sick. He would think that I have to fill my life with so much dawah, ibaadah and I need those aimaal so badly that I cannot afford to get sick.

This could also mean value your wellness before you get sick. You go to Makkah in good health but you only do one two tawaf the rest of the time you spend shopping and chatting. Imagine that there will be a time your bones will get so weak you won’t be able to do more than one tawaf even if you wanted to. Have you looked at the people who can’t bend and they have to do sajdah on a desk? You should value this while you can still make long sajood and ruku.

3. Value your wealth before poverty overtakes you.

Everyone is not destined to get poor. What this means is that we all have ups and downs financially. Someone frauds you, in this country it happens a lot, or business goes down. This is an an ishara towards charity; give freely while you can. There might come a time you would want to give but you won’t be able to because your money might be tied up in so many haqooqul ibaad. Go for Hajj and Umrah while you still can. So many of us save for future, and don’t spend the money. You are not being asked to go to another extreme and give away everything.

One example is that Syedna Rasool Allah sws only took as much as was needed for the support of umahaat ul momineen for one year. So that can be taken as an example to follow. Shoh: Means you want to give but your nafs gives you second thoughts. When you think I will give this much in charity but give less. That’s shoh and it’s a specifically sinister thing.

4. Value free-time before you get preoccupied.

This is another big problem with us. You maybe BAs and MBAs but all of you are already PhDs in procrastination. You keep delaying and delaying till the last minute. Value your free time before you get busy. Time is a limited commodity. Everyone is just going to get busier and busier and busier.

5. And finally Value your life before you die.

This is all encompassing: value your life itself before you pass away. I’ll give the example which many ulema give and that is of a baby in the womb of its mother. Whatever happens in the 9 months determine the life of the baby. And if those 9 months an organ of the baby is not formed properly then it would remain like that throughout his life.

Just like that this dunya is your spiritual development stage. Once you die you will never be able to get back. You will not be able to get even a drop. Another thing you should know is that, and this might have happened in your own family, that many people die before life expectancy of 70 75 years. There’s nowhere near guarantee that we are going to live a certain age. We should live our life so much as if death is impending, inevitable. That’s why some ulema say live everyday as if it’s your last. It means not practically, but emotionally.

Ham zindagi mein achi zindagi jeenay k liye nahi bhaije gaye. Ham iss dunya mein achi maut marne k liye bhaije gaye hein. We have been sent to this earth to die a good death. These are the wise sayings of the wise people (HG). How much of our effort do we put in life and how much do we put in death? Death is absolutely certain, and life is uncertain. If I were ask you to write top 10 things to do you wouldn’t even write about death. It’s not even in our minds. It means we should value life – the price tag on life is of infinite value. How you live in this world will determine your eternity so that means we should infinitely value this life. Life – eternal life – every juz of it is also infinite. But all that would be decided upon a finite life.

It’s like I tell you how you spend 20 minutes will decide your career, think how will you spend those 20 minutes? If a professor was to tell you that the next 10 minutes would determine your entire GPA, how will you spend that time?

We are involved in so much fuzooliyaat. We eat so much fuzool. Talk so much fuzool. That’s another PhD that you have is in eating. If you knew the power of an hour, you would wake up earlier. Actually you all have experienced it during exams. We call it fanaa. You were so conscious of the exam during exam time. As conscious is a momin of Allah swt. There are some people so deeply aware of Allah swt that even commerce and business, finance cannot distract them from Alllah swt.

I want you to imagine spending a day – a full day like that. Imagine offering a namaz like that. Imagine making one sajda like that. Sahaba karam were the living embodiments of this awareness. Nothing less is worthy than the life of sahaba, siddiqeen Syedna Abu Bakr ra.

In jannah people will have only one hasra – not grief or sorrow – but regret that If only we could have said one more subhaanAllah. Even if we hope iA all of us make it do jannah – but everyday we would only be regretting our life.

So this hadith of valuing 5 things before 5 things is a starting point. I’m going to give you another beginning before we take the leave. Eik cheez hoti hai mehnat, eik hoti hai chahat. That’s another problem with us. We have lost our talab for Allah swt, lost our chahat. Of the 10 things you want for life – I don’t know how many of you would have written Allah. You should never let yourself lose this feeling that I want Allah. Why? Because as long as you keep wanting Allah swt, Allah swt will keep wanting you. But the second you stop wanting Allah swt, then there’s problem. He is Haleem and Kareem He would still keep wanting you but you are in danger.

Keep the mehnat alive and keep the chahat alive. Jo banda bandi kabhi mehnat kabhi chahat kare magar dono ko zero nahi hone deta tou chalte chalte siratul mustaqeem mein hoga. Agar aap mehnat aur chahat mein se eik ya dono ko chor do tou aap samjho aap ko nafs ne pakar liya shaytaan ne pakar liya.

  1. Allah swt in Quran e kareem  mein ye baat wazeh ki hai pehle aap mehnat karein phir aap ko chahein gi. Raziatum marziya. Pehle tu razi hoga phir Allah aap se razi hou jaein gey. Desire to make yourself pleasing to Allah swt. Chahat to make yourself pleasing by first being pleased with Him.
  2. Those who strive in my path, surely I will guide them to many paths of hidaya. Mehnat, mushakat karein.
  3. Fazkuruni azkur kum. Aap mera zikr karo mein aap ka zikr karoun ga. Allah swt ya Allah aap tou Malik hein Aap hamara zikr karein gey? Ham tou naqis hein, najas hein, bewafa hein. Ham naqis zikr karein gey. Allah swt kamil zikr karein gey.
  4. Eik aisi ayat hai jis mein hamara tazkara pehle nahi kiya. Pehla qadam Allah swt ne uthaya. Yuhibbahu wa yuhibunahu. Allah swt emaan waloun se muhabbat karte hein phir emaan wale Allah swt se muhabbat karte hein. You are already the beloved of Allah swt when we take emaan. All we have to do now is become the lover of Allah swt. Iss ko kehte hein ik tarfa ko do tarfa banaein. Aksar ehkam ka khulasa yehi hai k eik tarfa ko do tarfa banana. Aap Allah swt k murad hein ab mureed ban jaein. Allah swt is such a loving and kind Rabb. Aap kahein gey ye tou kisi mutaqeen k liye hoga, ham tou gunehgar hein.
  5. Uss ki eik ayah hai jin logoun ne gunah karte karte apne upar zulm kiya: Jin logoun ne apne aap par zulm kiya don’t despair the mercy of Allah swt. Innalaha yaghfuru jamia: Allah swt forgives all sins entirely. How can you not seek the Allah swt whose mercy was seeking you even when you were sinning? Woh parwardigar jo gunehgar ko ‘Mera’ kehta hai who mutaqi ko kya kahe ga?
  6. Those who have imaan they are extremely intense in their love for Allah swt.
  7. Final chaht of Allah swt: What about non-Muslims? Insan? Allah swt tells that insan: O humanity, o person, what is it that has deluded you from your Generous and Kind Rabb? Ham tou phir bhi ahle imaan hein, chahe jaise bhi hein. Try to love Allah swt who already loves you. Trying to want Allah swt who already wants you.This is chahat. Jo log aise apni zindagi lagaien iA qyamat k din Allah swt un se naraz nahi houn gey.

Q&A

1. Even we want Allah swt, but at the same time we keep getting involved in our work as well. How do we manage this?

Ans: In order to keep connecting to Allah swt, you have to keep disconnecting from the mundane. That can be on daily or weekly basis. How to disconnect:

  1. Suhbah: O you who believe you should have taqwah, simply join your qunu with the sadiqeen. All of you should know who sadiqeen if you pray salah. You make dua siratal lazeena an amta alahim. It’s a path of people, not just books and texts. What type of people? Who are blessed and favored by Allah swt. There are always people in our ummah who are blessed and favored. Shuhuda, and nabiyeen are not here with us anymore. Sadiqeen are those who truly love and fear Allah swt. When you put yourself in their company, an automatic disconnect happens because of the suhbah. The love for Allah swt and fear that is in their hearts gets reflected in your heart. Normally our dunya is not sadiqeen. To disconnect we have to connect with sadiqeen.
  2. Zikr of Allah swt: This is your individual way of disconnecting from the world and to connect to Allah swt. More you remember Him, the more you can easily disconnect. Zikr and suhbah you do then you will keep disconnecting.
  3. Baqa: to be so connected to Allah swt that you can never be disconnected from Him. This is sunnah of Prophet s. In tahajjad he s was such that he would have a fana that he s was disconnected from everything else around him. But rest of the day he spends with sahaba but still he is connected to Allah swt. Our business, studies etc will

 2. How do we know Allah swt is pleased with us?

If you are pleased with Allah swt then it means He is pleased with you. But this is not enough. So I can explain this way if you are displeased with Allah swt then it means He is displeased with you.

If we are on good deeds then we should have rija that Allah is pleased otherwise we should have khauf.

3. What does it meant to value life before death?

Anything that’s limited you will value it and spend it carefully. That’s what it means to value life before death.

4. I need to get in good company. How should I keep doing it continuously?

You have to plug yourself in a system. If you say I need to listen to a bayan every night, you should do that. There are 2 ways of zikr: one is fard and one is nafl. If you miss your zikr and you fall in sin then it’s your biggest fard. Because staying away from sin is the biggest fard. Whatever you do for shariah will make your efforts forever.

5.  How do we assure to wake up for fajr even with alarms?

You see science invented the alarm but shaytan invented the snooze button. First of all this is the right type of obsession. Some obsessions are good to have. Pick up something and obsess about it. You should not think that why didn’t I pray fajr. But you should think that why didn’t Allah swt want to see my face at fajr? Why didn’t He want my name written in the list of people who pray fajr? Sometimes we are too soft on ourselves. We have to be tough on ourselves. A lot of it is about attitude.

There are some practical things that you can do:

  1. Before sleeping make dua Allah swt I’m sleeping so I can restore my energy for fajr.
  2. Keep the alarm clock further away. Put it on the dresser. Put a janamaz and quran near the dresser. Then you will feel embarrassed about it when you look at that. If it’s so bad you might even have to put it in the bathroom.

What do you do if you fail at something in world? You change strategies. You have to change tactics. If you keep changing then Allah swt will also start smiling at you. You have to make some effort. Hath paoun marna hai. You just have to try harder ultimately its Allah swt who will accept you for fajr.

6. What is the ahkam on pardah?

Bottom line answer is – there is a physical pardah and an emotional pardah. They are both important.  The guys would know what I’m talking about.

The thing is that co-education is haram. 100%, that’s the fatwah. But your society is co-ed. It’s not just education. Hospitals are like that. So lack of gender segregation is a society-wide problem. Even if our society is not structured that way, it is still possible to function in different domains. Men and women should by and large function is different domains. If you have to be in an interaction where you should not be in, then to keep that interaction minimal is your emotional parda. Don’t be long in your speech. Don’t go beyond the professional attitude. Don’t be rude, just be professional and to the point. Be curt.

Physical pardah is:  there is one thing scholarly tradition agrees upon. Cover up till ankle and wrist. Then you must have another article called khimar it is the head covering. But some people say where is the word hair in Quran? If you go by that philosophy there are so many parts that are not mentioned in Quran, and you will end up exposing them.

Khimar means to draw a head-covering over the chests, It does not mean to draw dupatta over the chest. jis tarha sardi mein chadar orhtay hein.

Another item of clothing is Jilbab. What is it? Even Christian dictionaries agree it’s an outer garment. You can call it a robe, cloak, coat. Jilbab means what it means and khimar means what it means.

Another thing is in Quran women are told to hide your zeenat. Is it separate from this or within this? So this is the question:

Where does the beauty of the woman lie?

Let’s ask the experts of beauty: actress industries, fashion industries they buy and sell women’s beauty. Kehte hein na dunya k ulema ko kuch nahi pata hota. Ask the vogue magazine what will you put on a cover magazine? Will you put the face of a woman or her elbow? Zeenat means face that is absolutely incontestable. What does Allah mean by except for what is apparent? What is apparent are hands and feet. Do you put face under zeenat or the exception? If the woman is wearing khimar and jilbab then what else is left there to hide? Just feet hands and face. Which one of these is zeenat? One or two of these must fall under zeenat. This is barely a linguistic analysis. You tell me, are feet more important or face? Or are hands are more important than face?

If anyone say if all 3 are exception then ask them what is the zeenat that is being covered? Ask them. I have explained you in a completely logical way.

7. Will we be responsible if someone dies without imaan?

To some extent yes. To some extent no. If they are within your daira, you have to do dawah to them. If you didn’t do dawah: didn’t clearly invite them then yes you are responsible. For example you have a maid you have had her for all your life then she is in your dairah. If someone in your daira is Muslim but not practicing, you also have to do dawah to them. You have to have a LOT of sabr for this. Sometimes they will be surprised by your sabr then they will ask you how did you get this sabr and maybe they will change.

8. How important is it to know translation of Quran?

It’s not important at all. You should know the meaning of Quran. That’s the tafseer by the scholars of meaning. There are certain things you don’t need to know for example what is the difference between kursi and Arsh? You don’t need to know this because it’s not necessary for your hidaya. You won’t be asked this on the Day of Judgment. You should also have the feelings. You must know the meanings and you must know the feelings.

9. Recently there was a video on youtube and we are all deeply disturbed by it. We don’t know what to do. What should be our strategy?

First of all, it’s not permissible to make videos or pictorial representations of our Prophet sws, regardless of the intention (doesn’t matter if the intention was good or bad). If people have seen it you can ask them what was in it but it’s not allowed for us to watch it. Strategies can be many.

Yes, through non-violent activities we can protest. But one thing that surprises me is that everyone is protesting over the video but no one is protesting over the oppression and physical violence being conducted against many Muslims in different parts of the world.  You need to question your passions and emotions. Our deen is a deen of wisdom and our Prophet sws is a prophet of wisdom. When you destroy cars, that is haram. You should be arrested. That’s the Islamic ruling. You should also be imprisoned. That is absolutely not allowed.

Regardless of the tape, the biggest ilzam against Syedna Rasool Allah sws is you and me. Hamesha apnoun se takleef hoti hai dusroun se nahi. Aap sws ki sunnat thi kabhi kisi ki insult par koi reaction nahi diya. Never reacted to insult.

You can do protest and all of that but what you should think is that Allah swt said that: to Allah belongs the izzat and to Prophet sws.

We have lost our izzat. When we behave different from sunnah we are the cartoons. We have a lifestyle that is a cartoon that we have drawn from our hands. We should look at the mirror and ask am I a cartoon? Do I have the sunnat ikhlaq, sunnat kaifiyaat?

Ideally it’s too late for that, but I would have told the same thing if everyone had listened to me. But that’s what they never do. I would have said that don’t even lift an eye at it. It’s not even worth your attention. If we hadn’t given it any attention, it would have disappeared after a 1000 hits on youtube. Now it’s like a world record. If a non-muslim does something sinister because of some reaction that a Muslim gave then we are a part of the action that they take.

Celebrate the Imaan and jazba . But you need to think what is the true manifestation of that love? If some white American actor portrays Prophet sws contrary to his sunnah then do you have a right to protest if your life is against the sunnah? He is an actor who is acting, but you are living your real life like that! So what you are doing is even worst.

We have to become people of dua. Begin with dua.

Living the Spirit of Hajj

[These are the rough notes of Cii talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed on thursday, 20th September, 2012]

Alhamdulillah a lot of people either know people who are going for Hajj and are asking for duas. While the people who are leaving are asking others to forgive them. Even right now there might be so many mu’mineen going for Hajj in the airplanes. Although, maybe most of our listeners fall into the other category who are unable to go on Hajj.

Those who are unable to go for Hajj – how should they spend this month?

When you are a mu’mineen you have to use all of your efforts to feel more emotions. One aspect of people is their emotions. When a person has Imaan he has more strong emotions. When we reach this month of Hajj and we are unable to go then we feel a longing. That longing which we feel for kaaba and Allah swt, the mashaikh don’t want these feelings to go to waste.

One thing should be made clear that it is not a biddah to do something in the ayyam e Hajj even if you are not going. Don’t think that Rasool Allah sws did not give any specific guidelines for those who didn’t go for Hajj so why should we do it? The thing is that we are allowed and in fact it is preferable for us to make any effort in our deen because we are already struggling in our deen.

You cannot do contrary to sunnah. But inevitably a person will eventually end up doing things that is other than sunnah. For example, a person tries to learn Arabic Language. Prophet sws never said to us to study Arabic. So if someone goes to that person and says that no you are doing biddah. Show me the hadith where Prophet sws told us to study Arabic? You would say that is non-sense. I’m studying Arabic because I don’t know the language. Similarly, this is just another way to develop our deen.

Any time you have any positive emotion, you should use and channel that positive emotion for the sake of Allah swt. If a person is unable to go for Hajj but they are feeling a feeling in their heart then use this feeling for some positive.

Whenever a person gets a positive emotion from Imaan it is very important to act on those feelings. A big mistake we make is we delay to act and at times completely don’t act at all. For example, you look at a person leaving for Hajj and you feel sad because you think had I gone I would have made this, this, this dua. If you feel this way then just go ahead and do it. Just make that dua. When we get a thought we follow it. If we get an impulse we do it. We should delay the bad or sinful feelings. But we should react immediately to a good feeling.

In Quran Allah swt talks about a particular kind of stinginess that is Shoh. Shoh comes when a person has already decided to do a good deed but then decides to do less. This happens because of their nafs. This can be in the case of charity. Like a person decides to give 2000 in charity, but then he has second thoughts and take out a 1000 note and eventually giving less. The same things can also happen in the case of emotions when nafs can make us postpone doing something about the positive feeling. Rather we should jump on top of that feeling.

Then we also have this feeling we have gone so far away from Ramadan that even Shawwaal has passed. Did I make up the 6 fasts? Did I make up the other fasts? So in Zulqada we have the feeling of Zulhajja. Those who are going have another thing to look forward to. We should feel the calendar. We should regret moving away from Ramadan but also feel good that we are moving closer to Hajj.

What should we do in these months now?

Two major areas we need to work on are

  1. Effort
  2. Desire

We should be working on both of them. This is the principle of tasawwuf that a person keeps moving from suhbah (company) to zikr, suhbah to zikr. When you get more desire, do more effort. When you lose the effort, work on getting more desire. If we stop having both then we stop moving towards Allah swt. And we should never want to be in that direction. Sometimes shaytaan and dunya gets us slow such that we find ourselves stopping by the time we reach Zulqada. We should go back somewhere and get the desire. Getting that desire is suhbah.

Why do we need company? Why do we need these bayan? Why do we need taleem? We need it to revive our hearts with desire. We always have to keep that desire because we must keep wanting Allah swt. We must never let ourselves stop wanting Allah swt. When we stop wanting Allah swt, gradually or suddenly, then Allah swt still keeps wanting us. But if we keep on not wanting Allah swt, not wanting a desire to increase in ibaadah then there will come a point when Allah swt will stop wanting us. Then there will be nothing for us in the world. We will be in utter loss.

If you look at it then you will see that Hajj is also an expression of want – a greatest want for Allah swt. We want Him so badly that we don’t care how we look or that we are unkempt. We want Him so much we are willing to let go of our families, our lifestyle for Him. If we have such a feeling then we should think that we want Allah swt so badly that we can leave sin. We can leave disobedience. We can leave everything; all the unlawful emotions, all the unlawful relations. You see, when a person starts wanting Allah swt then they don’t want that human company, they don’t want that sms. They don’t wait for that email. The less we desire Allah swt the more we would want these things.

Once, someone called our Shykh in front of us. That person was trying to express how much he wants and loves the Shaykh. Shaykh said what if I were to tell you that I have no desire for you at all? Ultimately all the auliya Allah only desire Allah swt. Probably our SHaykh was correcting that person that he should love for Allah’s sake. Any other love, personal love, has no value. Shaykh also has no need or desire to love anyone who sits in his suhbah for his own sake. But he does love those who sit in his suhbah for the sake of Allah swt. If we for some reason let someone else creep into our desires then we should take it as a sign that our desire for Allah swt has decreased. At times we may love someone for Allah’s sake and for our own sake also. We have to work really hard to make it only for Allah’s sake.

1st ayah: Very interesting thing that Allah swt in Quran has mentioned that when a person makes effort for Him Allah swt immediately rewards the person with Karam and Rehmat. So for example, we are razi and pleased with Allah swt. We did effort in being razi. Then Allah swt becomes razi with that person instantly. There’s no delay.

2nd ayah: There’s another ayah that says those who strive to please Us We will immediately guide to them many paths. Allah swt will open up more paths to be pleasing to Allah swt. Allah swt will guide him deep into the ways that are pleasing to Him.

3rd ayah: make zikr of me and I will make zikr of you. Here too we have to make zikr first. Reality is our tongue is not worthy of taking the name of Allah swt. Heart is not worthy of taking His name. The way we have been allowed by commanding us to do is actually His mercy. Allah swt says if you do zikr of Me then I will do zikr of you. If we make effort, Allah swt will reward that effort instantly. This is the way of Allah swt.

4th ayah: In another ayah Allah swt talks about desire: Allah swt loves the believers (first) and they desire me. I seek you out Myself and after that you will seek Me out. This is the beauty and the mercy of Allah swt that He wants us even before we want Him.

Then how can we not want Him? This is human nature that when a person wants us, inevitably we would also love them. How difficult is it to love that Allah swt who already loves you? Allah swt because of our Imman loves the believers. So the mo’mineen in the same way should be intense in their love for Allah swt. So that is the way we should be.

The most intense manifestation of that love is to feel that intensity and to manifest it and make the same duas, the same pledges, same changes in our lives that we would have made had we gone for Hajj this year. May we always be able to channel that positive emotion and may we always be able to turn towards Him.

Hajj – the Journey of love

[These are the rough notes of Cii talk given by Shaykh Kamaluddin Ahmed on thursday, 27th sept, 2012]

Everything in the world has an attraction towards something. Even the physicist will tell you every single object in the universe has an attraction towards another object in the universe. If even an inanimate object like a stone can have an attraction then certainly we the humankind also have this attraction. Before mankind was born we were all gathered together in aalam e arwah. Allah swt asked a single question that Am I not your Rabb? And everyone recited that yes Allah swt You are our Rabb. Mufassireen write that at this moment Allah swt entered the seed of love in the hearts of the mankind. At least every one of us will be responsible to take Allah swt as our Rabb. This is what you and I are sent here to do. We have been sent here to obey and love Allah swt. To love Him is the most important purpose of our lives. And why should we not love Allah swt when Allah swt loves us.

Once there was a student who asked his shaykh that: O Shaykh, can you bring us some evidence that Allah swt loves the mankind.

He began by saying that first you have to understand a principle that when you love somebody, then whatever your beloved does for you, you view that as very very big. So, a person you love gives you a small thing but you say that they gave me such a great gift. But when you give a lot to them you say that oh I should have done so much more for my friend.

Allah swt says that when the believers make zikr they make it katheer: they make it a lot. And you and I make very little zikr and Allah called it a lot. And Allah swt called dunya qaleel. That what Allah gave us He views it as very little and what we give Allah swt, He calls it katheer this shows that Allah swt loves us.

Those who believe should be extreme in their love for Allah swt.

This means that those who believe, they should be head over heels in love with Allah swt. And deen is an expression of this love. Allah swt says that that a person who loves me, he should also obey Me. There is no love without obedience. We can take the example of a boy who says I love my father but when the father asks him for a small thing to do then he doesn’t do it. You would say it’s nonsensical. So if we love Allah swt then whatever He had commanded us to do, we should do it lovingly, willingly because it’s an expression of love.

And Hajj is a journey of Love. Even the poorest of poorest feel an attraction towards Baitullah. Baitullah attracts everyone no matter what status they come from. It’s not confined to any special people. And even the invitation to Hajj. In Ramadan they stand for long hours at night for ibaadah, and they make long duas showing dependency on Allah swt. Allah swt not only accepts their forgiveness but also sends them an invitation to His Baitullah. Only those who exert themselves are invited to Hajj. This invitation is from Allah swt. Allah swt gave them the motivation and everything else that they required to get there. This is something we should never do: scoff at people who come back from Hajj but don’t change. We should understand that the journey of Hajj is a sign of qabooliyat of such a person. The fact that they went for Hajj shows that at that point they were maqbool.

Hajj is not a luxury trip. It’s not a five star journey. Hardship is a necessary factor of Hajj. We should go with a mindset that it will be difficult. If we have a mindset that I want ease then every moment we will be complaining. If we start with the mindset that it will be the journey of hardships then we endure it. We must understand that the lover accepts all the hardships for the sake of his beloved. This is a story to wax up this concept.

This is a story of a young man. He said I was outside one day and I saw a young man who was crippled. It was very hot and the young man was using his arms to drag himself. Imam ibn? Was very surprised. He said o young man what is it that you are doing dragging yourself across the road? He looked at him I don’t have time to speak to you I have to on the journey of Hajj. He said young man why don’t  you come and take rest at my home. He said I don’t have time for it. He said that I will arrange a ride. Replied when a runaway slave goes to his master, does he go on his own or on a ride?

On hajj after completion there was crowd and they said a young man was making dua to Allah swt. It was the same young man. This was the dua of a true lover. He said Allah swt I have done all the arkaan but now at this time everyone is making a sacrifice. But since You didn’t give me means, at the very least accept me as a sacrifice. His dua was accepted right then and he went to Allah swt.

You and I should also make niyyat that we will exert everything. If we look at the story of Ibrahim (as) its also very interesting. Ibrahim as was once herding his sheep and Allah swt wanted to show angels that how much Ibrahim as loved Allah swt. SO a man came and praised Allah swt. When Ibrahim as heard this he as said please please say those words once again. He was so effected by the words. The man asked what will you give me? And so Ibrahim as responded I’ll give you half of my sheep. Then because he was a lover he said just recite it one more time. He said what will you give me? He said all the sheep. Then he asked him to recite again and then you’ll need someone to heard the sheep. He gave not just what he have but also himself. That was extreme love that he had for Allah swt. People of imaan are extreme in their love for Allah swt.

That is something that you and I don’t have this because we haven’t really done something for Allah swt. How many of us can present a day, even hour, or minutes and claim that this is the level of my love. Nobodys done that. It was those people. They were the people who were extreme in the love of Allah swt.

There was a young sahabi. Hadrat Abdullah was a young sahabi who lived in the outskirts of madina. When he heard of the arrival of Blessed prophet sws, he went their and took imaan. The same night he returned home and no one at his home knew. In their home the hot topic of day was Syedna Rasool Allah sws. Whenever they would mention prophet sws it would have an effect on him because he loved Prophet sws. Then one of his uncles asked him that have you accepted imaan? He immediately said yes indeed that I have brought imaan. So this uncle of his said that do you not know that we have given you everything that you have. The food, the ceiling, its all from us. So either you can leave all of this or you can leave the messenger of Allah sws. So he immediately said no I will not renounce the faith. The uncle got so angry that he kicked the sahaba ra out of the house. While the sahaba ra was leaving, the uncle said these clothes are also what I gave you and stripped him and sent him on the streets. The mother went out and gave him a shawl which he tore up and wore in two pieces – you can say like we wear it in ehram.

The sahaba ra went straight to Prophet sws. At the time prophet sws was sitting and it was time of fajr. When he sws saw the sahaba coming he sws immediately stood up and his sws face was beaming such that other sahaba karam turned around to look who it was. Prophet sws embraced and kissed him.

After a while sahaba karam ra made a journey for jihad. One point in that journey Syedna Abdullah ra got so ill that people who took care of him they said he is going to die. Then prophet sws immediately went to him and he was lying there. Prophet sws took his head and placed it in his lap and this is the state that he passed away in. When it came to burying… he had left no wealth to buy his kafan and so at that time prophet sws offered to do that. The tradition is that the person closest to deceased would lower the body and put mud on it. But prophet sws said no to his brothers and lowered his body himself. Prophet sws made a dua such that Umar ra latter commented upon it that how I had wished that I had died and that Prophet sws had made that dua for me.

He sacrificed his clothes and he was adorned with the clothes of prophet sws. And he sacrificed looking at the face of his mother, he was adorned with looking at the face of prophet sws. This is the qadr that Allah swt does.

Each and everyone of us who have been accepted to go on the journey of Hajj they should make a niyyah that we have to strive and have hardships. The rest who cant go we should exert ourselves and make dua to be accepted for this journey soon iA!